addictions
these things call my name. since i was a kid, since before i know anything about them. they called me, ive just been drawn to them in the back of my mind. it wasnt a problem until i answered, just one answer snowballing into something vicious. ive always had an addictive personality, with nearly everything.. this new thing is taboo, and i want to openly express but i dont want it out there like that (lesson learned from youtube..). most of the time i dont know whyy i crave to do it. but i do and i only enjoy it in ways that are more or less public. thats it. ive been trying to think of negatives for it. but i find none. afters i think fuck i dont even want to smoke a cig, this could replace me smoking cancer. smh. one evil for the next but i wont get cancer? is that better?
