appreciate.
i appreciate blogging. that being said, lol.
update on self: ive kinda came to the conclusion that i cant get an internship before monday, thus i will just get a fucking F for this class. i have transfer credits im entering the 2nd Purpose (semester) yet im taking classes in the third semester. Im slaughtering all other classes right now. So thats good? Right? Thank god for sun. Im happy for now.
The love issue: Even though I love her and am soo willing to struggle and work to acheive what i know we can be. I Must keep in mind that: she isnt what i want in terms of her ethics, values. She fucked up, no i wasnt perfect, but she fucked up, so this is her lost. Why should I dwell, I havent lost. Its a daily process.
What I really wanted to blog about: I enjoy writing, Im not a poet, im just trying as best as possible to extract whatever my mental constructs. Another reason why I wouldnt consider it poetry because I dont think many people will connect with it? So here’s some shit I wrote. Its kinda left field? yada. Just my thought process
the sky is green
the grass is blue
it is what i make it
and i make it what i want.
this is fact, fact is as i say it is.
or as we say it is.
if i had any desire to follow blindly
what they say
what they all blindly declare to be
fact is i do follow
these words- are me following
how is it that i choose these words to expres
whats inside.
how is it that these words are installed into my mind
creativity is gone
i dont think in greens, blues, violets,
no abstract whimsical streaks of what is too beautiful to be described
only what they say
what they told me
the sky is blue.
the grass is green.
(i have an obsession with the concept of being colorblind. if u didnt know..i believe we are all blind, essentially.. but thats for another blog)
wouldnt it suck to be colorblind?
to see but to not see
all that you know is all you’ve ever known
but in some way you are blind
apparently your missing something
your not seeing what they see
what they procliam there to be
can you even trust what they say?
maybe you see all that is
maybe?
would it suck to be colorblind?
